I find it more difficult to sit here and write. I don’t know if it’s because I barely had a chance to do it all summer or because I have a ton more responsibility now than before. Whatever the reason, I have to admit that at times I am not too bothered by it. It feels more like a task sometimes and I don’t even know why because I don’t even know what direction I want to take with this blog. In the beginning, I just wanted to share and remember all the important and not so important things in our lives because I have a horrible memory and I want to look back and reminisce about every single thing in my family’s lives. Part of me longs to be able to sit here, and write about what I love and actually get a good amount of income coming in for it. Now I don’t care anymore about why I’m doing it.
I realize time and again that I need to be more open and honest here, share the good and the bad because life isn’t always so peachy. I am always focusing on all the negative that is going on around me and I didn’t want that here. There’s just always a little part of me that doesn’t want to share too much. You never know who’s reading. I am WAY more open when I write than in person…..It’s easy to hide behind a computer screen. I don’t know if I’m ready for something like that. It’s sad to admit but I opened this blog a long time ago and I continue to just hold back.
I’ll be doing different things around the house and my mind starts racing in different directions and I think, wow I want to write about this on the blog and then I’m like, Do I really want to do that?? (The fear of being judged overwhelms me.) So I keep going about my day and those ideas I had are quickly forgotten.
Ok….so this is a rant of sorts going in no particular direction. Just Venting!
I can vent right?! It’s good for the soul.
If I am going to take the time to sit here from the millions of things I have to do I have decided to change a few things. I am not going to push myself anymore on what I want out of this little blog of mine because it has obviously not worked for me. I will be more open because if someone in Alaska can read this and I won’t be bothered then one of my fellow PTA moms will too and I’ll live. People are going to form their own opinions of you with truths or assumptions the same way so I will not let that slow me down.
I am also not going to pressure myself about when I have to post because that always leads to bad posts and just awfulness all around. I am not perfect but sometimes it’s easy to assume that my blog has to be a certain way and it doesn’t.
I am battling a bad cold/flu right now so I hope this isn’t just the cold medicine talking, kidding, but I do hope I remember this when I ‘m feeling better.
I am really looking forward to getting back to my links to love posts because I just love oversharing, because that’s who I am. I see something I like, or LOVE, and I want to tell you about so that maybe you can love it as much as I do Whether it’s a good post I just read about one of my favorite bloggers or a favorite restaurant that my family and I love to eat at I will be sharing about it!